Work is so UP my neck...

Allo blog..i noe i haven been updating you wif my life...work is juz piling up too high...

Yesterday we went to meet our client, DSA..and guessed wat?! they want us to gif the talks instead! they feel tt if we interact with the DS people and gif the talk thru our experience..BE THE PEOPLE THAT CAN MAKE A DIFFERENCE TO THE LIVES OF THE PEOPLE WITH DOWN SYNDROME...Seriously, my team has no prob regarding giving the talks..juz tt we r afraid the sch will find us not professional enuff...bad bad bad...I really hope everything turns out fine..my team has been working hard..i told my mum i m worried i cant accomplish this task..i told my sis the same thing..she told me..:"JUZ TRY UR BEST AND U WILL B THE BEST..dun worry bout wat others do and wat others tink..wat it matters is,haf faith in wat u do and nth will go wrong"...how inspiring..i noe i can always rely on my sister to gif me tt dose of encouragement..:D

my sis used to tell me:" dun always fight to be number 1 coz there's no real number 1. there will always bound to b another being somewhere in this world who can win u. Just do ur best and dun care if u r number 1. Different people haf different yardsticks in measuring their success. U can haf ur own too. Y muz u compare? As long as u haf done ur best, and look into the mirror, into ur own eyes and say loudly that u haf given ur best shot, there's nth to be ashamed of. As long as u try ur best..u r ur own shining star.."

i love to compare myself with others since young..mayb coz i was born a sore loser or something..hahahha/..:D..and becoz of my competitive nature...i had a relatively unhappy childhood...trying to win every single kid around me was probably my lifetime goal back then..i can never stand myself losing to anyone..it was only when i grew older..then i realise...competing with others all these years have not brought me happiness..it has only made me a bitter child..i learn to let go..and accept failures as they come..surprisely..though i had more failures..i actually became happier..mayb becoz i no longer gave myself tt pressure to win everyone...back then even when i noe i haf gave my best shot and still lose..i would haf wallowed in the depths of self-pity..hoping heaven will tk pity on me and let me win the rest of my life ahead of me...i was super wrong apparently..

mayb learning how to let go sometimes is a gd thing..my sis always say the only thing tt can really cripple my success is probably my overprotectiveness of my ego..from young..i was afraid of being embarrassed..afraid of showing my not so perfect side to others..i was afraid of exposing my weakness and fear making any mistakes in front of anyone...tt kind of life is tiring..i had to be in top condition all the time..giving everyone my best side...my elder sis is different though..she c no need to protect her ego..she haf no qualms bout making silly mistakes in front if her class and she was nv afraid to show others her weaknesses...she had no fear of letting anyone noe tt she..is imperfect..and becoz of tt..she had always been a carefree child since young..i used to ask her.."ain't u afraid of pple luffing at u when u make a silly comment or do something stupid? being luffed at is humiliating"..she gave me a really smart ans..hahaha...her ans was :" Juz remember no one is luffing at YOU..they r luffing at UR WORDS and ACTIONS..but they r not luffing AT YOU AS A PERSON. wat's there to be humiliating bout?"..wat a optimistic ans! hahaha...tt's my sis..the one tt always bring me inspirational things when i nid it..:D..

ok..time to go..got meeting later..:(...ahahaha...

**quote of the day**: Do your very best and God will do the rest :D

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