dunno wat i m busy wif
9am to 5pm is work...clearing internship at my current working place...though it's not exactly the best place for finance or econ student but meeting around with clients and getting chased by law firms quite exciting la..hahahahah..actually i haf a reason for clearing it here. If I resign to go on a formal intern in a bank or smth, my boss will re-hire and I will lose my job..hahahaha..so might as well clear it here and keep the job. Anyway, I will going on another one next yr, but I cannot guarantee it will last a full 10 weeks..so ya..tt's my decision, not the smartest one, but i can at least keep my job for now.
My knee still hurt and it seems to get worst nowadays..haiz..tt's wat aging is bout sia...
My Finance Director is flying off to America soon, so I guess I will be left wif a lot of work to do as a Finance Deputy..haiz..but it will be good experience. Hope i learn loads tis summer :)
My Korean class has been cool so far and I m starting to pick up the pace of the class. A lot of frens complaint and say tt i m wasting my time on something redundant, i shld focus on my studies. Seriously, tis sem, i really gave my best. Although I could haf done much beta without the part-time job, the TA duties and getting involved in Patron's day and Grand Opening, but these are experiences not offered by textbooks. I dunno, my frens say GPA is wat matters. CCA dun matter and experience dun matter. Firms want GPA and only GPA, so work on ur GPA. I noe my GPA ain's as outstanding..hahaha..or u can call it bad..hahaha..but i gave my best le..unless i can gif up all my other responsibilities and become a total mugger i tink i might b able to do beta...but i dowan tt...
recalling JC days...band was tough. really..time-consuming and tiring. For JC students where results matter more than anything, getting involved in a time-consuming CCA is probably suicidal...but i chose Band. though my A levels results weren;t the best of my ability, I was glad I had chosen Band. It gave me a lot of wonderful memories, fantastic frenships and a fabulous 2 yrs of JC.
I dunno, i had always been vv motivated prior to reaching university. Becoz my parents had always made it a goal of my life. It;s like when I reach uni, i was tinking:"so ya, i reach uni, so wat's next?"..i dunno..sometimes i look at econ and wonder y i study econ. But sometimes when i look at econ, i m glad i chose such an interesting subject. Sometimes when people compliment me of how good my command of chinese is, i wonder did i make the correct choice in studying economics and givin up studying Chinese in NTU instead. Everytime such thoughts start popping up, i will squash it and say:"chinese is an extra asset if u study economics well. If u had chose to study chinese, it will not b an extra asset anymore." See. I am best in deceiving myself..hahahaha But the thing is, my econ is not in a vv good state now..hahahahah
so slpy, but i cant seem to slp. Mayb I m suffering from insomnia. But the thing is, the past few nites, i was so tired, i did not even noe I feel aslp. Only to find myself on the bed or the sofa the next morning. Weird. I'm so weird.
I m now torn between having an much better GPA and zero CCA and zero outside-class activities, or an average GPA(which i tink i m getting further and further away from...hahahaha) and relatively active outside-class acitivies...haiz...
Everytime I write an entry at nite, i get vv upset..hahaha..coz everyone is aslp and no one wanna tok to me. Only left my Mickey Mouse staring back at me. He's the best. He listens and nv tok back at me. He's been wif me for 13 years. He was a gift from my grand-uncle. The very granduncle who dotes on me a lot. Hahaha..it was a farewell gift coz I was entering Pri 1 and I will not b staying over at their place anymore. So he told me:"now granduncle cannot listen to your troubles anymore, let this Mouse be with u ok? It's a gift from granduncle." This is the only softtoy i nv allow my mum to throw away. I have too deep a relationship wif it. My parents are good, but they nv like to listen. My sis dun like to tok to me coz she say I always get worried over stupid things. So only Mickey Mouse listens to me. I name him Tommy becoz tt's the name of my imaginery fren when I was young.
Oh man I m starting to sound like tis mental freak.Hahahahaha...oh well, every child has an imaginery fren rite...hahahaha..i haf 2. One boy one gal. Tommy and Carina. I dunno how i got to noe them but i rem having these 2 frens with me when I was young. And one day when they were no longer there, i rem asking my mum y Tommy and Carina nv visit me anymore. My mum stared at me and say:" i dun rem any of ur kindegarden mates wif the name of Tommy or Carina." Hmm, and so my 2 frens vanished and nv came back again. Weird.
Time to orh orh le..so much tokking..hahahaha..bye people
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