I am so sleepy
And today is like action packed can...8.30am - 10am is EDA, 11am- 2pm is work, 3pm to 6pm is mae up class for Applied Econometrics, 6pm onwards is Patron's Day rehearsal. As part of Broadcasting and Entertainment, I m involved la..hahaha
Next wk there's like 3 midterms and I havent even finish studying. So screwed can...
My fren is saying I am spreading myself too thin. Maybe ba..but at least my TA responsibilities will add after bout Week 8 since the course is only half a term..one less responsibility, I hope I will have more time to study. As for the job, actually it's ok la..the workload is fun, I just dun enjoy haggling wif te lawyers' secretaries all the time when the accounts have things missin all the over the place..hahaha..but at least get to badmouth them with the boss la..hahha..:)
I haf lesser time compared to pple who only study all day. There r time when dropping the job have crossed my mind..but I won't. I was offered the job when I needed a job badly and I am glad I got it. The boss have been nice enuff to offer me such a flexible working time and I cherish tt. The job gave me a chance to be assertive (u so hafta be forceful wif the secretaries! my goodness. I nv knew pple who haf such poor working attitude manz...) becoz of the time constraints of having to complete all accounts before the mth ends..and my company has 32 law firms' accounts under their belt...And there's like only 2 pple doing..hahaha..
My grades haven been vv good last sem, i guess i was too stressed out bout scoring well then learning wat was being taught in class. Well, at least tt's wat most of my frens said when they observed me. Dun stare at the A+,just internalise wat u learn, and the grades will come to you. tt's wat they say.hahahaha..let's hope so. I am so dying in Applied Econometrics loz.
I dunno. I was so driven back in JC. I remember I will b so tired after Band Practices(which ends at 11pm everyday due to Youth Fesitval Competition and I was in JC yr 2!) but still force myself to study till 4am, wake up at 6am for school and start the vicious cycle all over again. slp at 4m, wake up at 6am, band ends at 11pm...it was crazy. I rem how many times when I would be dozing off at the table, i would turn ard form my table and stare longingly at the bed. Then I will pinch myself vv hard on the forearm, until I wake up. Or i will bathe. Sometimes up to 5 times in a single studying nite. I just needed to stay awake. I was driven, becoz I noe a mere A levels cert will get me nowhere. I hafta be able to make it to all 3 unis. I dowan to be chosen by the schools. I wanna choose the school.
For now, I dunno where my life is going. I have interest in Finance and banking positions but I dowan to see myself in an office sitting behind a computer churning financial reports. Mayb I have seen too many of my cousins, working their life away, and losing the will and interest at the tender age of 30.
I dowan tt. I wanna try jobs wif constant challenge. smth tt stimulates ur senses. I dunno. Mayb I wont even graduate wif an outstanding GPA (coz without drive, I cannot study loz..) and I dun even noe where my future lies. I dun understand y my relatives all say :"wah! uni sure got bright future!"
It's a big land in front of me and I have no compass and map.
Worst of all, I am all alone.
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