Depressed mode

My direct report says if he grades me now, I will not pass. He goes on to ramble about how slow my work progress is and how I never seemed to do enough.

His mouth knows nothing but negative feedback - even when it's a "that's good enough for this stage of the project", it's conveyed with an annoyed face. For the very first time in my life, my direct report is not satisfied with my performance. Impressing my superiors have never been tough for me, until now. Whatever I've done so far just doesn't seem enough. 

Self-confidence is at all time low :( Am I not good enough for the big player? Am I not smart enough for my ex-banker of 15 years direct report? 

KianPing says it's ok to be made to feel dumb by one's direct report, it just means one is learning on a daily basis. I conveyed the review to a close ex-colleague and she said "Oh my, you are working very hard already! I mean.. how much more can you pull up your socks when you are working this much?"

I have one more month to prove that I'm worth not just a nod of acknowledgement, but a fierce tick of approval. 

Ok back to work.


3 comments:

  1. Anonymous2:16 AM

    Hi there,

    I'm so sorry to hear that. Your boss sounds demanding. Give your best shot. Jiayou!

    - Silent Reader (Rena)

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  2. Anonymous1:00 PM

    Jiayou! I guess pple meet bad and nasty bosses every now and then.

    Don

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  3. Anonymous9:46 AM

    Big hugs girlie!

    Do your best! You know I'm always a call away :)

    - Di

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